| i dont lyke this pink writing w/ my background... i gotta figure out how to change it...
well im bored so im writing in this...
its kinda weird wen things fall apart 4 every1 all @ once and ur left hearing about everything but u just dont noe wut to do 2 help. i hate that feeling.
jess -- i am so sorry. i dont noe wut 2 say 2 make u feel better... just believe me that he has good intentions and maybe things r better this way?
im not gonna say other names cuz they go 2 my skool, but 2 all u guyz... cheer up... life's 2 short and things cant b that bad rite?
>.<>.<>.<>.<>.<.>.<>.<>.<>.<>.<>.<
random thought: my life is so boring rite now... |
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| {iTs aLL oVeR}
2nite wuz the last day 4 the play... so sad :( but now i got so much work 2 catch up on... cant wait...
thanks 2 every1 in the play and every1 who came 2 c us! :)
michael: i cant believe u didnt show up 4 jes 2nite...
won ton men: thanks 4 coming 2 c the play :)
every1 else: luv ya
hey we won basketball, paddling, swimming, and wrestling champs KEWL haha good job guys! :)
{sO tIrEd}...KaTy |
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| i have my interview 2morrow *so nervous*
we had 2 perform 4 the skool today... omg dat wuz scary
im so stressed out its crazy |
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| THINK ABOUT THIS...
Somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination.... and the homework..... and the incessant forwards..... and the friendships..... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes!!...... Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends..... And the "I miss you's" & the "I love you's"....... And the "What are we doing tonight's?"..... And somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing, growing... Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes........ And the skipping classes...... And the studying for tests....... And the pretending to study for tests....... And the downright NOT studying for tests... I forgot.......... I forgot what high school is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry....... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy........... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart............ I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.......... I forgot that you can't control falling in love........... And that you can't make yourself fall in love........... I learned that I can love......... I learned that it's okay to mess up......... And it's okay to ask for help......... And it's okay to feel like crud.......... I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't the parties or
the DRiNKiNG or the hook-ups... It's the friendships, which means taking chances........ I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.......... I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing. And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both o l d and new......... Are the most important people to me in the world. And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today..... So this is a thank you to all of my friends. . For always being there and I love you.
2 IoLaNi PeOpLe: its sad wen i read this and noe that only a coupld people outta all of u could ever really mean anything lyke this... thank u for being frends (frends?) and enemies. |
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| ((everything gets weird))
i never knew applying 4 anuther skool gets so complicated... my life is screwed...
every1 seems 2 care 4 me now and act sad cuz they think im leaving... but wut about the last 10 years?
y r people trying to make me stay wen they're the exact ones who drove me away? dont put on the same act i've been putting on for the whole time @ that skool...
every1 i noe has some kinda problem now... it makes me sad... and they come 2 me 4 help... i try 2 help but dont they see theyre not the only ones hurting?
i need change...
everytime i think about it, i come up w/ about 1 true frend...
* i want independence *
* i want 2 smile a real smile everyday * |
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